I still believe the man I thought you were, is in there somewhere. I hate to see you doing this to yourself. I can't believe how easily you have reverted to the "Selfish Jerk" everyone has always thought you were.
When we were together you started to respect yourself and had a better outlook on your life, your goals and your future.Our relationship has been over for months now, and people still wonder what happened, they still talk to me about you. They are concerned about the person you are reverting to. I hear things like he's arrogant, he's back on drugs, he's ignoring his son, he's cheating again, he's obnoxious, he's using people, he only think about himself.... as though I could change any of that.
I loved you so deeply at one time, and if that helped you to be a better man, find that joy in yourself. I have always believed in you and maybe pushed you when you weren't ready... but I think if you would have tried harder, you would have been happier.
We hurt each other, why? I'm not sure....
You have created this fictitious image of me in your mind. Is it so you don't have to remember what we had? It tears at my heart to see you this way. The hatred you try to express toward me is unfounded, but if it's the only way for you to deal with your new life, you may want to think about where you will end up.
Shaun, we may never be friends again, but my heart will always love the man you used to be, when there was an "US".
