Funny, as I take time for me... I think about my AS(s) period. (After Shaun, ) I seemed to have lost, or given up so much more of myself for him. I don' t understand why though. Maybe I thought he needed help, maybe because I thought he could be a better man, maybe I saw something in him that he continues to fight.
This "boy" I met so many years ago had such aspirations, but he always clung to some mysterious force that always seemed to "detour" him so easily. I had always had an attraction to him, as he did toward me. Was it the mystery of what could have been? 10 Years later we found each other in a situation that he blames me for... even though he wanted it just as bad as I did. We fell in love... a single kiss... He was my "Superman" I was his "Kryptonite" We shared so much, but couldn't see past our issues. We couldn't hang onto the love in our hearts....
Strange how strong our love can be... yet how weak we were to keep it alive...... Could we have ever found the strength??? I am a strong woman, but I feel he was a weak man.... Sad really! Why couldn't we see what was staring us right in the face????
