An attraction 10 years ago, became a love so intense this past year. Maybe too intense.
From the first kiss, my heart raced, my face flushed, and I was weak in the knees.
It was never supposed to happen, but we fell in love. I knew his past, and he knew mine but, we still wanted to be each others future.
A love that started that intense really had no room to grow. I believe it began to destroy itself because we were both so afraid of losing each other. and we did.
The jealousy and control that we both exhibited couldn't be contained. I began to second guess the kind of woman I was, and a woman I didn't recognize began to emerge. I began to push him away on purpose because I saw it coming, my heart accepted his love, but my mind wouldn't believe it. Maybe it was the same for him...
If only we could have kept the two people who fell in love, in a picture frame with the reminder that we loved each other just the way we were, instead of trying to "modify" each other.
Lots, more, often...
Superman & kryptonite...
The Bandits... ( backyard, mailbox, love bandits, etc...)
All da' time....
Baby
I Love you, Beautiful
When it's good, it's great! when it's bad it's hard...
Lenny...SRV
A song he was to write that I'll never hear on my birthday
Country roads
These bring back thoughts and feelings that I now have to hide away in the deepest parts of my heart.
Forgiveness and effort were the things I desired, just as they had been given to him... but, I was a fool to think he was capable of them. I now have to be selfish with my heart too... Damn, that's so hard for me!
I Loved You Shaun Cohorn, whether you believed me or not. You will always own that hole, that could have been my life... now, someday it will just be a scar.
“Don't ever give up on something or someone that you can't go a full day without thinking about.”
“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”
“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”
“Moving on, is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard.”
These are some things my friends have told me, and I am really trying to let it all sink in, as I move on...
From the first kiss, my heart raced, my face flushed, and I was weak in the knees.
It was never supposed to happen, but we fell in love. I knew his past, and he knew mine but, we still wanted to be each others future.
A love that started that intense really had no room to grow. I believe it began to destroy itself because we were both so afraid of losing each other. and we did.
The jealousy and control that we both exhibited couldn't be contained. I began to second guess the kind of woman I was, and a woman I didn't recognize began to emerge. I began to push him away on purpose because I saw it coming, my heart accepted his love, but my mind wouldn't believe it. Maybe it was the same for him...
If only we could have kept the two people who fell in love, in a picture frame with the reminder that we loved each other just the way we were, instead of trying to "modify" each other.
Lots, more, often...
Superman & kryptonite...
The Bandits... ( backyard, mailbox, love bandits, etc...)
All da' time....
Baby
I Love you, Beautiful
When it's good, it's great! when it's bad it's hard...
Lenny...SRV
A song he was to write that I'll never hear on my birthday
Country roads
These bring back thoughts and feelings that I now have to hide away in the deepest parts of my heart.
Forgiveness and effort were the things I desired, just as they had been given to him... but, I was a fool to think he was capable of them. I now have to be selfish with my heart too... Damn, that's so hard for me!
I Loved You Shaun Cohorn, whether you believed me or not. You will always own that hole, that could have been my life... now, someday it will just be a scar.
“Don't ever give up on something or someone that you can't go a full day without thinking about.”
“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”
“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”
“Moving on, is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard.”
These are some things my friends have told me, and I am really trying to let it all sink in, as I move on...
