So I went to Expo Friday, to listen to the bands. Guess who was there... Yep... Shaun and his OLD lady. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against her age, it's just the fact that she actually does LOOK old! Her hands, her wrinkled skin, her wrinkled face... and the fact that she tries to dress young to keep Shaun, is funny as hell!
When Shaun and I tried to "work things out" shortly after our break up, and I asked him to get away from her, He himself even said, "You don't have to worry, she's a wrinkled mess, it's just a place to stay." Kenny and Susan even told me she is young looking until you see her face... WOW!!! They weren't kidding!! But I guess, "A wrinkled mess" that will cater to your every need is what Shaun wants. And she is definitely used to giving it!! LOL A friend of mine,who was married to an "older man" for awhile, said his new girlfriend, was banging her stepson and his friends!! All of them approx. 15-20 years younger than her! One night stands mostly, but she supposedly "Loved" 'em all!!!
Way to go Shaun.... from a woman with class to.... well, let's leave that alone.
Anyway... so my friends and I head to the main stage... My friends Mark & Jill were playing, and I was determined to enjoy it! My father's friends, along with Andy were scattered among the people at Expo, "watching out" for me (I hate when they do that!) I had just come from talking to Mark (behind stage) and joined my friends. Who comes over to our side of the stage, pretending to look at something? yep, the new girlfriend! LOL!!! Did they think it would "intimidate" me?? It did nothing but create a roar of laughter among me and my friends!
THAT was insecurity on HER part!! I will always be a part of Shaun's heart, and he will always be part of mine, and I'm sure she doesn't like the fact that she can't control what we had. LMAO!
I was feeling very confident and good about myself that night, so Shaun's decision to be with someone else... didn't even phase me!
I ignored him and his hag. I ran into so many of my friends, danced, enjoyed the music, and had a great time!
I did have a moment, when I glanced back in the crowd and saw him standing alone, not far from me, and I couldn't help but think of all the things that could have been, had he not been so self consumed. But then my friends thankfully, snapped me out of it.
I have made the effort to "re-read that chapter" in my life.... I'm done trying, if he doesn't know or care about how I felt or what we had, why should I? It appears the "sparks and flames" that burned my soul, are healing. He would have to do something big, and full of effort to get to this woman again. The pain of the last 3 months is finally ending!
