This past week at work, was crazy busy. I was intently focused on my work when, out of no where a memory of you, suddenly distracts me. Your face fills my mind, I hear your voice in my ear, my heart starts to jump in my chest... I closed my eyes and tried to push it back down into the dark corner where I have safely stored it.
This one was pretty powerful, I started to tremble, as it would not give me peace. The memories of us rushed through my heart, taking my breathe away. As if you had some mental connection to me. I pulled the picture of us out of my desk, where it had been buried away for years. Looking at that passionate kiss forever frozen in the frame makes it worse. My breathe becomes shallow, and the tears begin to roll down my cheek.
I sat there for almost an hour trying to fight this memory, mentally pleading for it to stop. Finally I gain some control, but I'm not able to diminish it all together. Randomly throughout the day, you'd pop in (very similar to the numerous phone calls, IM's and emails you'd send me whenever we were apart). Sometimes I'd smile, sometimes you'd take my breathe away, sometimes I'd cry and sometimes I'd get angry....
It's things like this that used to tear me apart and almost break me. Now, I remain intact emotionally and just sit and wonder, if we ever had closure after our breakup.... would these memories still haunt me?
