Is it really love??

I thought I fell head over heels in love 3 years ago. I thought Shaun and I had it all. I hadn't felt love like that since Danielle's father. When we broke up, I was crushed, devastated....
I now see how selfish Shaun was. Even though everyone could see how good we were together, he couldn't. He was too immature, for my love. It's his loss.
The man I am with now, is so deserving of my love. He loved and cherished me even when I was far from perfect. While I was busy feeling sorry for myself after Shaun and I broke up, hoping everyday that he (Shaun) would finally realize that we were meant to be. That he might step up and take the initiative, to maybe not be so self absorbed. It took me almost 2 years and a nervous breakdown, to realize that he can't love anyone enough to change the "asshole persona" he portrays.
Through all that, My new love was trying to show me how a real man can love a woman. He was patient, kind, non-judgmental and understanding through it all. He is the total opposite of Shaun, He does not control me, he is not angry at me for having loved someone like Shaun. He has encouraged me to go thru all the emotions, the pain, the anguish... I was so blind to his love and support, UNTIL, I finally got over Shaun. He looked at me and said, "I can't promise that I will never hurt you that way, but I do promise that I will never allow you to hurt that way, ever again!!"
He gets me! He totally understands me! He respects me for who I am, and trusts that I love him!
He was there when I needed a shoulder and a friend. He never allowed me to use him. He wanted the real me, not me on the rebound. And the best thing is, He waited until I was ready! He didn't get angry or turn away from me because the healing process "took to long" That quiet respect and gentle understanding means so much to me, and speaks much louder than words. I knew a rebound relationship, wasn't going to heal my heart. When you so desperately want to feel the kind of love you just lost, sometimes you blindly jump into the first relationship that comes along, and end up even more hurt and confused.
My new love understood that and patiently waited! *** That's Love***

I hope someday Shaun can find TRUE happiness! If his heart is truly happy with Norma, I am happy for him. If not, I pray that he grows up and figures it out someday.

Thawing heart...

I don't know when it started, but I believe my heart is beginning to thaw out.
I have a man in my life that truly cares about me. I do believe his relentless calls and openness, may have finally gotten through to me. I am amazed at how long he has been trying to break into my heart! Most men would have given up months ago!! After all that I have been through, I am going to take it slow and let this evolve into a great long lasting relationship!